I GOT A NEW XANGA!!!!!!!!!!! This one is no longer in use.

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Rena

www.xanga.com/BackhandGirl

Unfortunately, I couldn't stay away for long.

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And thus my xanga dies. It wanted to stay alive, but it just couldn't hang on. So, sorry, out like a light my little xanga goes. Fly away into obscurity xanga baby, I'll be waiting for you on the other side.

So you like what you see, eh? Yeah, Im a bad kid, I'm totally irresponsible. Take care of myself? Pssh, in your dreams,. I can barely make it out the door without a cigarette in one hand and a beer in the other. I need to go to AA. I need to go to rehab. Fuck, I should just call the cops on myself.

Do you ever get that feeling where you feel so helpless and betrayed and angry that you want to rib out your own rib bones? That's an accurate portrayal of how I feel right now. Im so angry I could scream and scream and scream until my throat bled. I can't stand it, it's like I'm inside myself trying to get out. In a painful, ripping, sort of way.

I can hear the birds singing,

Rena

Quote of the Day: Oh god... "One of these things is not like the other..." Jamie and I, I guess. Crappy quote. FUCK!

I think my theme song is "Black Betty." If you disagree you are wrong. Today I went to Sonia's house for dinner avec Jamie. It was fun, her dad made digustingly good food, like he always does. Talented man in the kitchen he is. It's almost the weekend. Sort of. Im so goddamn excited I can't feel my toes. It'll be my first normal weekend in like 3 weeks. Jamie is sleeping over both nights and Sonia is sleeping over on Saturday. We're going to the aquarium and buying cool new belts... Not from the aquarium. Or Maybe... Anyway, I'm mad excited. Elana bought me a cool new present and for that I am greatful. (Spies have infiltrated my site.) Everyone who matters already knows. I watched the season finale of the L word. Good god, everything bad that could possibly happen... Did. I cried, but Im no loser. If Shane were crying you would be crying avec her as well. She's just so CUTE. ARGH!!! I can't believe I have to wait until NEXT JANUARY to find out what happens! Fuck good TV man, just fuck it. But wait, good news, Dead Like Me comes back on soon. Thank Jesus. Speaking of Jesus,

"Some of you are doubting that I am the son of God. Please don't be jewish. I am your lord and savior Jesus Christ, son of the one and only God."

Rena